May 29. 2009

her feet

her feet

we were given the pathology report and everythng is Bradford was perfectly healthy(as well as my placenta)  once again…no answers…no explanations except God took her home.  We are still kind of shocked, confused, an very sad.  We have glimpses of respite from our emotions but we know it will take a while and diferent stages of grief will be evident in our lives.   We received a cd of pictures with Bradford in a pink dress someone so graciously donated.  The picture of her feet was the only one I could process for now.  It means the most to me and I am not sure why.  Maybe wondering when she would have taken her first steps, where would her feet have taken her…would she have been a dancer, an athlete….would she have walked with the Lord?  Is she frolicking and dancing with the Lord even now? oh her precious feet….its what caused me the most heartache upon holding her in the hospital…her small tiny feet. 

We know amist our pain we have such great joy in  the homecoming of Sawyer and Wyatt and all of our boys.  We have been given 6 incredible gifts and we are so thankful for each one.  We cherish now every milestone they have with their own remarkable God created feet.  Wyatt is taking more steps each day, Sawyer is climbing every ladder he can, Davis just got his cast off and is jumping off everything, Emerson now reaches the peddles on his bike!, Smyth and Dawson are kicking in the pool learning to swim.  David and I are just trying to keep our feet walking day to day and hoping along the way we will know God’s feet were walking with us the whole way.  We see evidence of his mercy and grace but we stumble so many days and our feet want to stop.  May Bradford’s feet remind us of dancing one day with our Saviour and frolicking with him alongside of her in a world with no sadness and no tears…

Posted by Judith at 6:13 am on May 29th, 2009

Comments

By Steve on May 29th, 2009 at 10:59 am

You guys are brave for sharing such a personal journey of struggle. I love you both and am humbled by your honesty and willingness to invite people into the difficulty. It’s not easy…

By shea on May 30th, 2009 at 12:09 pm

Beautiful, Judith. What perfect little toes. Loving you from California!

By Bradford Phelan on May 31st, 2009 at 7:42 pm

I have tears in my eyes. Those are precious feet, and we thank you for being courageous enough to share your beautiful heart with us. PRaying for your feet. May God give them a rest as HE carries you through this awful valley. THank you for making me more aware of my feet and the day they will be Home in glory.
“He makes my FEET like the FEET of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights.”
Psalm 18:32-34
“You armed me with strength for battle; you made my adversaries bow at my FEET.”
Psalm 18:38-40
“My FEET stand on level ground; in the great assembly I will praise the LORD.”
Psalm 26:11-12
“You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my FEET in a spacious place.”
Psalm 31:7-9
“He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my FEET on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.”
Psalm 40:1-3
“The LORD says to my Lord: “Sit at my right hand until I make your enemies a footstool for your FEET.”
Psalm 110:1-3

By Jenny Noland Loughridge on June 2nd, 2009 at 10:13 am

I’m walking with you with all my heart. Thank you for sharing your heart with so many.
Love to all of you, Jenny

By Dena on June 2nd, 2009 at 9:08 pm

Continuing to pray for you guys. Thanks for sharing your heart.

By Julia Wreyford on June 5th, 2009 at 8:49 am

I’ve thought about you so much, and I’m so glad I found your blog. Come see me at thewreyfords.blogspot.com

By Mindy on June 9th, 2009 at 4:18 pm

I have my favorite picture of Emmie framed in my bedroom, and it is of her feet! I think what it is is that when I see her precious feet, there is life there. When I see her precious face, eyes closed and hands folded, I know that there is death. But those feet….they look like little tiny baby feet should! They remind me of her life, and not her death. Thank you so much for sharing precious Bradford’s feet! That is so personal and I appreciate you sharing her with us like that.

By Elizabeth on June 11th, 2009 at 9:01 pm

What a beautiful post and tribute to your daughter, who indeed is dancing with God right now. I am still in awe at your strength and faith and still praying for you. Sending love your way.

Elizabeth Wilkes

By McKenzie on July 21st, 2009 at 3:55 pm

Thank you for posting this Judith and sharing your very special picture and honest thoughts! Praying and thinking of you often!

 

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